Little Inklings 2022

Dear Evan Hansen, Nobody else understands me, What’s worse is, nobody else wants to try. You’re the best friend I have. Or, let’s face it: the only friend I have. It’s just you and me here, so let’s be honest with ourselves. Because why not, right? Mom didn’t want me. Dad didn’t want to stay. Mom got stuck with me, Mom had to deal with me, Dad got to start over. Why didn’t we get to start over? Nobody let us start over. Why does nobody ever let you start over? Why can’t I start over? I want to start over so badly. I want to be someone new, but I look in the mirror and, big surprise, it’s still the same old me. Everybody else has a family. I just have parents. Everyone else has a home. I just have a house. A lonely little house, with a tiny little bed, and the carpets have smelled weird since the day we moved in. Everybody else has dreams. I just have setbacks. Everybody else has connection. I just have collisions. And then there’s Zoe. Like, all my hope is pinned on Zoe. Like, everything I am is invested in Zoe. Like, my entire existence is wrapped up in Zoe.Like, everything would be ok if only there were Zoe. who I don’t even know. and who doesn’t know me. But I feel like if I knew her, I could love her. And I feel like if She knew me… Who am I kidding? Let’s be honest with ourselves. Let’s just try to be honest with ourselves. Never going to happen. Zoes doesn’t care. Does anybody even care? If I disappeared tomorrow, nobody’s going to care. They don’t even knows my name I’m giving up. I’m giving in. I’m not fighting it anymore. Nothing changes. It doesn’t get better. It doesn’t get easier. You don’t get any wiser. You just get older. Your skin gets thinner. Your nerve gets weaker. Your feelings get hurt enough times that you’d rather not feel anymore. You give up, I give up, I give up. Once and for all, I give up. Sincerely, Me Dominique Cederberg ❜ 26 Dear Me 60